Fix me, fix my life, win back my wife

[ScaredinCanada]

We were both in high-school...so I would say I was hanging around with my friends and going to school, we met at a mutual part-time job.

I honestly need to just try to focus on making myself happy - or finding what makes me happy. Right now I'm not happy at all. Looking forward to counselling so we can start trying to move this forward.

My wife seems to have no plan, I'm not sure she's really thought through her emotions at this point. I know she has no plans to go anywhere - and I know I'm not going anywhere.

I need to someone make myself believe that I can and will be happy regardless of my M, but that is a daily struggle. I keep thinking about it and other than some rough times over the past few years and the handful of situations where I haven't handled things properly as a H - I'm still kind of at a loss to explain this.

I truly believe that the biggest issue remains with friction between my W and my mother...and my even said on the weekend that she's not sure she would have come to the point she's at if there weren't the problems with my mother and the fact that it's created tension between myself and my W.

Going to try and re-focus this week, stay positive - attempt to GAL and try to move on...