Last night H mentioned he has started swimming laps, to prepare himself for end year kili climb.
Red flag went up. Potential OW has been swimming laps lately, she says on FB...this morning she did laps again, and H only got into work late (I can see him on skype)
Two and two together all the time...
Detach...detach...detach!
I HATE being lied to...its eating me alive
I NEED to let go!
I wish I just had proof he was lying....it would be the end for me.
I think I keep checking because I WANT to catch him out. I NEED it to let go.
I know his being secretive is enough proof, but theres that tiny little uncertainty that means he could be telling the truth when he said 'There's NOTHING with me and OW, now you've heard it from me. If you want to know something ask ME, not other people.'
Theres too much suspicion I know. I KNOW. My GUT says if its not PA its EA...but STILL ...I need to just KNOW!!!
I'm trying so hard right now. Giving myself constant 'talking tos'. Its also so hard to GAL, especially having a 4 year old son, all of my friends are married with no kids yet so that its sometimes difficult to make plans with them, without panning well in advance.
