2 years later it's still not getting easier

[Nvrgivup]

I've dealt with many "odd" occurrences (I think I know exactly what you mean), and unfortunately I think its good thing that you don't believe she's coming towards you. Not that I have any idea whether she is or isn't, or if you should or shouldn't want that, I just know that for me I hoped so much that my XW might be, that I would lose track of what was more likely going on (which of course was nothing) and the expectations etc, would have me feeling like hell later. Letting go is this long and arduous process, and I know i'm not there totally yet. I sometimes have to remind myself that a text or something that "looks" a certain way is about me and how my feelings may project onto her actions? ie I want her back so I can make a text look like she wants to? But I've realized that if she did, or ever does, that it will likely be more obvious? and I can't hold my breath any longer for it.
I took my boys to see the new Harry Potter movie tonight, the movie was great, but just being with my boys made it so much better, we talked at great length about it on the way home. I hadn't been that happy in a while. Definitely better than any date.