Starting on a different path

[Mystik]

Dreamt about H twice in the past three nights. Thursday I dreamt he was trying to find a way to leave OW and the new baby without him being the one doing the leaving. He was trying to get her ticked off enough she broke up with him. Then last night I dreamt different things about H, all were about him trying to come back to me but I don’t recall all the details.

Had to see H this morning when he picked up DS. Was hard. He asked how the parent-teacher conference went, I told him he needs to call the teacher. He asked why and I said because she wanted to talk to him, DS is behind. He asked if it was reading and I said math, too. He waited a moment but I didn’t say anything else so he closed the door and I left. I cried the drive home pleading with God to please, please bring H home to me soon. Came home and dozed for almost two hours and then went to pick up DS. Again, cried part of the way home. DS distracted me with throwing out math equations for me to solve, for some reason that fascinates him.