Hey HP. Ole BR has been out of sorts lately. BR had to go for an ultrasound only to find he has an unknown mass. To say I'm concerned is an understatement. I go for a biopsy later in the week. I did take the spreading of the cream on W as a good sign.
W has been extra caring over the past couple days as she found out about my deal. She's done everything to help me including checking into my doctor offering to take me and watch after me after the procedure. She's mad at the doctor for not giving more info to the point where she was calling for me. She's in the medical field by day. BR screwed up today. W asked did I want her to look after me later in the evening of the procedure. Not wanting to eat up too much of her time, I said no. Booom. She flipped on me. I didn't understand why and really don't now. She told me that nothing has changed when she tries to support me, I push her away. That wasn't what I wanted to do. BR hates people to worry about him to the point where he really hasn't told him mom what's up. No need to. Turns out W has a friend that had cancer in the area BR will get probed.
We talked and I finally admited that I was scared. I should have listened to my friend at work who told me to just accept the help and don't "macho" this thing up. She said W was reaching out to me in a mother/wife way. It does feel good to know she still cares in a way. Who knows.
More to follow perhaps in a new part III thread....
