Things in BR's home aren't any better than the last report. Things are going a little worse I think. W is mad a me but isn't saying why. D said mommy may be mad at me because I simply came home. I don't think that's it. Over the past couple days, S has been sick. As W is at Sams or her friends house helping her family while neglecting ours, I'm the care giver. I've been in this role for over 4 years so who cares. When S get sick, he gets puny. He goes from wannabe tough guy to baby. For some reason, he doesn't want to sleep in his room. He would rather bunk on the floor in my/our room. He usually does this when he's scared of something. A couple nights ago, he told me how much he hated the house and the dog W brought in here. He also said how much he didn't like mommy "trying to force" him to sleep with her. The other morning, S wasn't doing too well but he was trying to go to school. He really didn't want to stay home by himself. I didn't see W offer to stay with him. When he came home, he was out of it. I let him crash in our room. W comes back from work and has the nerve to wake him up "to see how he was." You don't wake a sleeping sick child to check on him. You let him sleep. The next thing you know, she's asking him to sleep with her which he refused. Last night, it was just me and him. We went out and he was saying how much he's beginning to want to leave the house and live with his dad. I knew this was coming. Mommy is smothering him. When he heard the garage door coming up, he bolted upstairs to our room and pretended to be sleep in hopes W wouldn't try to get him to sleep with her. No luck, she asked him again. He felt bad and asked me if I would feel bad if he did. Of course, I'm a grown man and put the kid's feeling ahead of mine most the time. Well, he watches rasslin' with me and waits to she goes to sleep and doesn't go in with her. This morning, not only did she not leave a cup of coffee, she leave a couple drops. The kids were amazed at that.
I don't have a clue where she is. I'm sure she thinks I'm turning the kids against her. It's her action that cause that. She checked out of the family over a 1 1/2 years ago when she started her job. She in my opinion is a plethora of abreviations, she's a WAW, WAM(walk away mom) trying to ease back in and of course she's going through a MLC. A woman in her 30's shouldn't thrill to going out to celebrate a person who just turned 21.
On the upside, BR is going out for drinks with the gang tonight, then bowling/movies and perhaps to one of the gang's house to play cards, drink and howl at the moon. I told mum about my plans to which she lectured me that I am still married and need to be careful. I think I want to get out amongst people who want and can tolerate my presence.
I don't have a clue as to how to convince W she needs to work on her relationship with the kids. If I told her 1/2 the stuff they say, she would be crushed and mad at me for "making it up." Intel also suggest W has crunched numbers and found out she CAN NOT keep the house, spend any reasonable time with the kids and keep her health up. I feel a little bad but then again, I don't. This episode is on her. Maybe cart boy or the gang at the club will help.
Not.....Too much bandwith used. Had to put my thoughts into writing.
