I know I am in a good place right now where I owned my mistakes and recognized his mistakes and I no longer feel like I caused his affair!
BINGO!
Fu*king A newmamaa!
Piano, you own your issues and look inside and KILL the ones THAT YOU do not like. Not the ones that HE does not like.
Why would you want to change things about yourself that you like to be with someone? What does that say about YOU.
Your strong - don't be afraid to feel it and accept it. Your smart - don't be afraid to accept it. You are the type of person that loves deeply (otherwise you would not be here)...don't change that.
You say that you were a planner - is that all bad? Fu*k no. Do not put yourself down because your H has issues that he is unwilling to look at and deal with. Personally, I say pat yourself on the back for all of the work you are trying to do, and FTR, succeeding in doing.
Be proud of yourself Piano. Be proud.
God Bless, Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
