I have a big day tomorrow with the boys, I'm in bed at 10 so I can get up and we can get going to Hershey (i live an hour from there).
I am really depressed tonight, here we are....the holiday season, and I miss my boys all the time. The fact we aren't together all the time isn't my choice, the fact they are hurting and I can't help them kills me.
I've been busy, working on improving myself, but I always end up alone at night...just thinking. I look into their room everynight, why I don't know.
I dream about my wife alot, I wish I could make that just go away...
I have a different life, a good life, but I miss my boys so much, I miss my wife.
I don't have them at all Thanksgiving....I'm going to golf in the morning, visit my Grandmothers old roomies in the Nursung Home, then go Christmas shopping Thanksgiving Night....something I wouldn't do, but hey, it's a change....
My wife will play house with her new life, have my kids around new people....and here I am.
Depressed at what I am missing, probably looking in their room.
M-38 W-37 T-16,M-11 (Oct 30,1999) S-5 S-2 Wife left 7/4/2010
"When life hands you a lemon, say, 'Oh yeah, I like lemons! What else ya got?" — Henry Rollins
