You're right Sandi about getting to the point where we just can't do anymore, that God steps in. I can't think of any other time in my life where I have felt so helpless. There have been moments in this where I truly have not felt that I have the strength to make it. I have never known this feeling before. But somehow prayer has gotten me through every one of those moments. It may not have taken the moment away, but it has gotten me through.
Jstar- thanks for the support. I am so sorry that you are going through all of this too. It is just crazy that someone else would do this to us. I know that nobody should feel forced to stay in a marriage, but I feel that there is a right way to leave a marriage and a wrong way, and this is certainly not the right way.
I have been working hard at detaching as Sandi suggested. Sometimes when I don't hear from him for awhile I think to myself... this isn't working. But then I remind myself, what other choice do I really have? I can't make him change by following him around like a lost puppy, and I can't have him back in my life the way he is right now. Plus, for me, a big 180 is sticking with a plan and following through.
It is jus on nights like tonight, when my son is with him. I miss my son.
