I do feel like a doormat. It is a little who I am.
When I say doormat, its like this: "let's watch what you want", "I can do this, you have a seat", "I don't care, what do you want to do".
In the moment, I feel like I'm being polite, or being the gentleman for a lady, or showing an act of service for someone I love. She certainly does things in return, and most of the time the scale is close to balance. I fail to notice when it gets out of balance, or try to go further when I get a bad vibe from her. Bottom line, she's really cute, and I'll wash dishes to get lucky tomight, every time.
Regarding her therapy, I know it is up to her. She is currently in therapy, and dredging deep (rape in her past, possibly bipolar). I feel like I can't have a problem that isn't hers, and vice versa- so I would like to work through this with her. Of course it needs to be on her timetable, but we should get back to us, then see when/if she wants my help.
