Its just weird to live the life of a married person with no real marriage to work on.
You mentioned in an earlier post that the R is going in the best direction it has in nine years and then you make the above comment.
You don't have the mindset of someone in Piecing. You're letting your frustration and impatience overwhelm you. You speak of positives in the R, yet punish him for not getting what you want. I'm not sure what you want from him at this time. The R shows signs of life, and because it's not growing fast enough for you, you pluck it out of the ground.
You make opiniions about what's in his mind. Are you sure you're right? Is boycotting doing errands for him going to move things forward and keep you two connected? How do you know he's not ready to piece? Are you putting enough energy into making yourself ready to piece?
You are not yet in a Piecing mindset. Focus less on him and more on getting yourself into a loving, compassionate, allowing, self-care, boundary-setting mindset.
CL
CL 53 W 54 M 20 yrs. 03'-09' Separation + Old Patterns + GAL 10-14' Piecing
"The Master allows things to happen. She shapes events as they come."
