Moving Forward

[gutwrenching]

I might not have made this point clear...this isn't about piecing anymore. She wants OM again, she thinks. She isn't sure. I said ok, I will start splitting up assets and opening new checking accounts tonight. She said no, lets give it a day, lets talk again tomorrow night. I said I could give her a little time but not a ton. If she wanted OM, she could find an apartment somewhere to do it in. I also told her no coverups this time. Friends, family, co-workers...they will know...I won't pretend to be married and I'm not going to lie about what happened.

She is a wreck. I don't understand why she can't see what this does to her. She said she hasn't slept well all week, her balance is off, she looks just worn down completely. When she gets into thr throws with him, she becomes physically ill.

There is a big part of me that wants to email OM. Ask him if this is really worth risking his career over and does he have any idea how ill and miserable this actually makes my W...