Moving Forward

[gutwrenching]

She told me we needed to talk. That's how I found out...though I was sensing it already. Not sure who initiated...he had sent those couple of emails, and I suspect she then reached out.

OM's W doesn't even know of the affair...but he has told her he wants a D.

OM is tired of game. W asked me if OM had emailed me...I gave an odd look...he was threatening to email me to tell me that we would never ever hear from him or about him again because he was tired of all this.

Not sure about withdrawl pain...right now she seems to be leaning towards leaving to pursue this long-distances EA with OM.

Pisses me off, scares me some, whole range of emotions. Financially it would be crushing...we are committed and in-deep right now financially...it is just amazing.

She is slightly on the fence.

i don't really know exactly what to do now

She says she loves me and she told me that she "loves all of the changes I have made" but she keeps on thinking about OM. And that isn't fair to her or me.