feel love thumping at the doors of my heart again

[flowmom]

The intimacy is the best thing in the world and the beginning stages of dating can be kind of painful when you aren't in bed. Just my experience.

OK, it's helpful to have this perspective. I guess I am recalibrating my expectations right now. Before I started seeing stbxh 18 years ago, I was living with a boyfriend of 2 years! So I just don't have much experience with this stage. And with busy schedules it's not possible to "fast forward" as I probably did in my early 20s...not to mention both of us having more baggage and more "at stake".

Glad to hear you are going to work on just "going with the Flow!" har har, love to say that, FM!

LOL! :p

You know, I've been thinking of things that Guitarist said last night and I'm thinking that some of what is going on is him not trusting me and wanting to manage the image I have of him:

1. he was rambling about some jazz songs that we were listening to and then worried aloud that he was boring me (not!)

2. then he was wondering aloud if I was just playing jazz to please him (not!)

3. then he was talking about something he did for his wife that he labelled "soppy romantic" -- worried that I would see it that way?

I'm starting to think that it is hard for him to fully relax and be himself with me. I guess that will take time. I think he is watching me to see if I am sincere and how I react to things. I tell him that I'm pretty straightforward, and he agrees but doesn't seem to trust it.