Haven't Yet Found My Way

[Lostinlife]

I am so sorry to read this...they never think what they are doing to everyone. I am seeing something similar, and I so want to come to my boys rescue, and I don't know how.

My prayers are with you and your son.....

[rysmom]

I know how you feel. I have suffered from depression for many years. my lawyer sent the d papers to my h last week without me oking it. I felt like i was going to have a nervous breakdown. I called h yesterday and told him " i told lawyer not to send it but he did anyway, I dont want that now because i have to focus on helping our son with school". I just couldn't go thru with it, I couldn't handle that emotionally. I have been sober for 16 yrs and I felt like i wanted to drink today. I just want to escape from this pain. it has been going on for so long. Hope you and son are ok.

[rysmom]

Hope things go well for you tomorrow.

[Mystik]

That is so true, Lost. I just want to shake H and tell him, "Look what you are doing to our son."

Thank you, rysmom. How unprofessional of your lawyer to send out D papers without your permission. I'd probably be looking for a new lawyer if the one I hire did that. And yes, it is a horrendous emotional strain.

[rysmom]

I filed the d a month ago but told lawyer I didnt want h served yet. L kept pressuring me to serve h papers because it was only good for so long. I kept telling him I wasnt ready to send them but he did anyway. L is also a municipal judge and I think he was on a power trip. I am going to a new L lady if i need to.
I felt i had to file because of financial reasons and my state doesn't have legal separation. It breaks my heart that h is living with ow now at his mother's. I try to stop obsessing about h but Its very difficult.
Hope you get lots of support tomorrow.

[Mystik]

I hear ya on the stopping obsessing. I feel like that's all I ever do and am helpless to stop it. I refuse to file D. I figure if H wants it so bad, he can file.

[Mystik]

I need a new thread, will most likely start one tomorrow after my first meeting with the treatment team.

[flowmom]

Mystik, I am so glad that CG is posting to you...she really knows what she is talking about and I hope you read her words very carefully. She was the first person who told me the harsh truth in my thread. I hated to hear it but I listened anyway and she is one of the people who truly helped me to move forward as quickly as I have. It does take courage to confront one's issues head on. Good for you! We're cheering you on.

[newmama]

Mystik, I know this might sound weird but I am excited for you to start your treatment! I mean I realize it is terrible that you are in this state, but it could really help you so that is what makes me excited I guess! I will be thinking of you and looking forward to your posts about it.

BTW I think your S is in good hands with his teacher. As a teacher it is tough sometimes when we ask the parents about personal stuff but it really helps to get an explanation. Like she said, she doesn't think you should worry about tutoring just yet until his behavior gets on track. (you will have a better idea by the spring anyway).

good luck tomorrow!!!

[courageous wife]

Hi mystik

Just got back from my parenting class tonight and it sounds like your S in going back and forth between the the stages of grief...denial and anger!

Will be thinking of you tomorrow!