BR Update:

BR had to put a few of his thoughts on paper to get rid of them and keep his sunny side up. Today marks the 10 year anniversary of me and W going on our first date. It was to a company Christmas party. Tonight, BR is going to his by himself. I asked the wife but she said I waited until the last minute and she couldn't. She said I should stop acting like the kids and tell her about things in time if we really want her to come. At least she didn't say no. That's a plus I reckon.

This morning, I decided I wasn't going to the party because of the feelings associated with it. As the W was leaving for work, she told me to have a good time and not to drink and drive. I told her I wasn't going. To that, she told me she thinks I really should go and was strong about it. I asked her why and to that she said I need to get out with people for a change and have fun. I know she's not trying to get rid of me so that didn't enter my mind.

However, I wonder why she was so strong for me to go. One of the kids was telling me she said that she thinks I should go because they have intruded on my space for a while. They being the whole family. I don't feel as if they have intruded.

Does she think I want to be away from them I don't and I hope that's not what she thinks. I am going I decided. I'll sit with a couple friends and their boyfriend/husband. I'll stick around and have a good time but when the dancing starts, I'm outta there. To add to the nostalgia, I asked the D to pick the tie she liked best for what I'm wearing. She picks out the tie. Yea the tie that I first wore on our first date. It was in the back of things and she had to pick it out. I'll wear it just to take a part of the W with me.

Well, that's out. I will do my best to have a good time. Once I get a couple cups of Christmas cheer in me, I think I'll be just fine.

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