Perhaps you're right Corri. I've never been in a place where I couldn't read someone and what they truly want. All my instincts are shut down not just with this sitch but in all areas. I think they call it self doubt..... My funk has increased a little bit. I just heard a Christmas song that has the lyrics "Christmas just ain't Christmas without the one you love." I heard another on with lyrics saying how great Christmas will be together. I had to go out on the deck and let the wind hit me in the face. I've never hated Christmas until now.
The tree's up and it looks great but.... Kids were all over me at dinner as W kept refering to me as honey. Ole BR is sure in a funk. I pray for strength to snap out of it tonight. At least work will be fun with secret Santa going on. It'll be cool to see what one of the ladies get a 6 foot 2 280lb(getting leaner by the day I might add)for a present. I'm looking forward to that and rolling out my rum balls. I've done this forever in an effort to sneak booze into the work place. I guess I do have something to look forward to. Maybe I'll watch It's A Wonderful Life. That's my show and this year I feel like George Bailey.
'nuff of this. Sorry to dump but I would rather do it here.
