Yo folks... long time no post... yet again! Been busy and that's good I s'pose. Keeps my mind off stuff. Two months now and I'm still glad I went through the divorce. He has e-mailed a couple of times. Most of the time it is related to "expect a check in the mail for HOA refund". He did send a "Happy Halloween" e-mail but for the most part, I don't respond and just delete the message. If I do respond, it's to answer a direct question that I feel actually needs to be addressed. No response has been more than a "yes" or "no."
I'm finding that the more time I spend away from him in no contact, the more I hate him, the more vengeful I am. I want everyone in his life to know what a horrible person he is. Before the d was finalized, word got out at work about his relationship with OW. He covered it up by telling everyone that he and I were "separated" before his relationship with her began. THATS CRAP!! Jerk!! Whatever he needs to tell himself to feel better about his behavior. But all this building... I just want to tell everyone he knows what a horrible person he is. What he did to me. I want to destroy his life like he did mine. He stole the future I had planned for myself. Now here I am back at square one. I know I have an opportunity here to start a new life and plan a new future and I can make it whatever I want, I'm just pissed that I have to. I want him to be at square one too.
Hopefully this is normal and I'm not a complete crazy person. Job search continues, mom is half way done with the really crappy chemo doses, bro in law recovering nicely from gunshot... My new life better than the way I was living earlier this year, I just want him to suffer the way I did. What can I say... I'm an anger ball when it comes to my ex.
Hope all is well with you guys!!
When you are happy as an individual, you are in a better position to determine whether a partner enhances your happy life or weighs it down.
