BR: I knew I liked you for a reason--I make my own Bailey's too! In fact, I just made a batch right before Halloween and I need to make some more before Christmas. I also make Kahlua and Amaretto. I think I should write an additional chapter in the SSM book for Michele. It would be titled, "If all else fails get your spouse rip roaring drunk and take advantage of them."
About your wife.........dammit, Blackie, make your move. I know you are unsure of her reaction but so what? Don't sit back and do nothing and reinforce what she has been saying and thinking about you all along! I know she told you to leave her alone, but your own vibes are telling you that she doesn't mean it.
I read something that Dr. Ruth wrote the other day and I thought of you. It was about turtles and how they use their shells for total protection, HOWEVER they can't move with them on. If they want to move forward they must stick their neck out.
So get out of that shell and stick it out!!
I know that she has hurt you, but you have to remember that you have both hurt each other and you are being the strong person right now while she flounders to keep up with your strength. Give her some of that Bailey's and report back to me on Monday.