Partner left after 9 yrs - reconciled now married!

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We go for our "12 week" scan when they tell yuo if the baby is ok or not today (although we are having it early at 11 weeks) and I am very nervous !!

I've had some conversations with H.. more things come out that I didnt know. I didnt want to push it in the early days of our reconciliation and was just so happy to have him back, I wanted to look forwards and mend things, not pick over the past. Now that we are married, settled and expecting, I find I have more probing questions.

His best friend inadvertantly posted a pic of him on Facebook with .. Helen in the background!!!! H was very upset about it and immediately emailed the guy to take it down (it was a genuine oversight). We are visiting this BMF Sunday, H finally told me last night that BMF said that I was better suited to him than Helen ever was. I was glad to hear this as I was concerned BMF had preferred Helen! Silly me, just pride hey.

I asked him how he felt in that gap between ending it with Helen and asking me back.. he said he felt very depressed and sad and unhappy. I said Why!? He said because he was thinking about how stupid he had been. "Looking back what I did was ridiculous, it was a combination of a series of bad decisions, wrong turns going down tunnels in my mind, burying my head in the sand and just basically, very bad decision making." He says he feels stupid, even now for how he treated me.

He also said he was very worried that I wouldnt take him back, which frankly I said was ridiculous, I was practically laid flat on a platter for him the whole 18 months obviously waiting for him to take me back. He said he wasnt sure and was afraid I wouldnt! So just goes to show, that either a) men are stupid and unobservant or b) I did very good GALing/DBing and had him on his toes