Today's tasks are tough, but I am determined not to let them overwhelm me. I have to set up some no charge phone numbers on my phone bill. It will mean looking at the account, something I have avoided for self-protection. If I don't do this, I face large over-charges. The phone bill is already cutting into grocery money, so I can't just ignore it. I need to just get it done.
Since I will be there, I have decided to go ahead and look (it will be right in front of me anyway) to see if H is still talking to OW every night and print out the records for emergency use in the event of a divorce gone bad (worse?). A part of me hopes he has ended it with her, but I don't really expect to see that.
I'm feeling strong and prepared, but I think I am about to find out just how well I am detaching.
I planned this for a day I had an appointment with my IC, just in case I needed the extra support. I also made some nice plans to enjoy time with my D3 tonight. I plan to put all thoughts of H & the divorce preparedness work out of mind as soon as I pick my D3 up from day care.
We are going to start holiday cards for art time. We will use lots of glitter glue I'm sure. Then we will have some ice cream and watch a movie.
I will admit that I still hope H doesn't follow through on the divorce, but I don't feel like I can ignore the possibility that he will follow through.
On a seperate note, H's 'home life' with his parents is getting even more uncomfortable. His mom has been laid off and recovering from surgery for the past 6months. Yesterday my FIL lost his job too, so H will have even less space from them. I guess its not my problem. Feel bad for my FIL though. This was a big surprise for him.
