Moving Forward

[gutwrenching]

Cyrena
Great point. You know I'd heard that before but as you probably can relate, things slip your mind especially when in the middle of things.

And to let you know you are right. I went into today with a much better, stronger, confident attitude about life and the sitch. I stopped the anxiety and got control of the emotions and waited to see if she would give me any positive signs. I stopepd thinking as much about her. I did things that I wanted to do this evening and put the cell phone in a different room and didn't check the computer.

It seems to have helped. She initiated some communication today. When she called she had very little time to talk, I simply stated she sounded busy and sounded like a long night ahead of her. She said yes it would be a late one at the banquet. I said ok...no nagging, no telling her what I wanted or to call. We left it at that. I said I'll see you tomorrow and she said she's text or email me tomorrow.

Well surprise, she called when she got back from the banquet even though it was close to when I would be going to sleep. And I had to call her back because my cell phone was no where near me and I missed the call. We talked very briefly again. And she changed her return flight home to get home about 6 hours earlier.

So you are right.

But we still have issues that I think we need to talk about...curious what some of you who have been here before think. Don't we need to talk about that part of rebuilding trust is not repeating patterns of the past? Those triggers?

I know for a fact she has no idea how much pain she put me through, she thinks she has an idea, but I don't think so. But shouldn't we talk a little about not creating more pain?

My radar is still up about possible re-contact with OM...and that boundary is going to have to be re-discussed and re-iterated probably a few more times.

Thoughts?