Haven't Yet Found My Way

[ImprovedRomeo]

Mystik, I've never posted to you before and I don't follow threads outside of 'Surviving the big D' but I've read the last few pages of this thread and I wanted to share a few things with you because I see your son is the same age as my DD.

I understand and sympathize how you feel...believe me I was there and no amount of people coaching me to do things would make a difference. I just didn't know how, honestly didn't want to know how, I was stuck with the idea that all I wanted was her and I wanted to be stuck day dreaming about her return. Well I did get her back but she turned around and did it again. Then I realized how I've allowed her to disrespect me all this time. How I've allowed one person to bring me down to my knees- and she's not even Kate Moss. I realized how I've been a door mat...it's just not very attractive, it's pathetic to be honest! No one person should ever have so much power and control over us...and honestly they don't, it's all in our heads. These people detach and go on...while we're stuck with the idea that perhaps if we said or did something in particular it would change their minds.

Based on what I've gleaned from reading this thread you had questions about how to act around your STBXH? That's easy...as long as it's not weak or sappy anything will work i.e. pissed off, cold etc but ideally business like. Like you're meeting a friend of your neighbor.

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Agree in advance in writing DS's exchange and stick to it. Outside of that agreement don't answer his texts, phone, voicemails etc because you don't care to discuss anything with him other than what's been agreed upon minus any DS related emergencies. Also, what is your exchange schedule? I'd suggest one week off, one week on- that's what I do with D6 and it works great. Also, on the subject of DS please keep him protected from all this go in-between with H and you. DS shouldn't be a messenger, schedule planner etc. If you can't talk to him that's OK email works just fine for the day to day stuff. But you and your STBXH have to find a way to do this as adults, you'll have to do this at least until your son is an adult- potentially for the rest of your lives because of your son. However, with setting boundaries and getting things into a routine will make your life SOOO much better.

As for the feelings and emotions- from now on what you say and do with him HAVE to be different than what you feel. He should never be allowed to see or hear how you truly feel inside, it will do nothing positive. I repeat, nothing positive! Your feelings are for you to safeguard...he lost all rights to know anything about your feelings, your plans, your thoughts etc. From now on it's just business and DS related.

I'm sure a lot of this has been said before but it's worth repeating if you're not there yet. You need to take control of your life.

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And two, think about your son what he sees and senses. You have to be strong for him.

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(((hugs)))

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