Long time no talk! I have been off the boards for a while now still working on myself and making a lot of progress. Things have been really busy with me working double time to bring my project in on time after spending the first 6 months of my sitch with no ability to focus on work. I caught up on your old thread (thank you for the really nice note BTW ;)) and it seems like you guys have made a lot of progress and I am so happy for you.
Originally Posted By: FindingMyVoice
After all the work I did this year I figured I'd kicked them to the curb. But starting to think maybe it's something that will be with me forever, so something I have to manage rather than expect to completely defeat.
That may be the case and I would have to think it would be unreasonable to expect to completely rid yourself of tendencies you have developed over decades of experience. You probably know from my sitch that before my bomb, I had let my once strong sense of self-confidence and self-esteem slide over the years. The bomb sent me to rock bottom. I have spent the last 6 months since dropping the rope seriously working on getting my groove back and I am finally starting to re-discover who I was before I lost myself.
My point in rambling all this (yes, there actually is one!) is that I have learned that personal growth and healthy mental/physical habits are a continual process and not a destination. Growth is like a stock market chart, ups and downs day by day but improvement over the long term. I have two bad days for every good one but whereas I used to spend my energy dissecting the bad ones, I now look forward to the next good one and it really does help to think this way.
Try not think of it as managing it as much as you are going to keep bringing yourself back to the challenge of kicking it to the curb no matter what. You may never completely banish your tendencies but you can sure as heck make them inhabit some rarely visited, dark corner of yourself!
Keep updating us on your sitch, I think I am about to come out of posting retirement. Do you ever get over to the place where all the castaways went?
