feel love thumping at the doors of my heart again

[flowmom]

Had a weird dream last night where stbx, my children, and I moved as a family to an old neighbourhood of my old home city. It was so strange to relive the shared excitement of a new adventure with him again, if only in a dream. We had a big old house with a big forested yard on the edge of rock bluffs leading down to the water...a fantasy. We were interested in exploring the neighbourhood. We talked about how there were so many rooms in the house, enough rooms for every purpose. Togetherness. I miss it.

STBXH called me out on sounding exasperated on the phone this morning. We've been having issues with S7 attending his weekly class...he is having a rough time with it. STBX and I were talking about it and it became apparent that he had no idea what the names of his teachers are. This is the THIRD year that S7 has had those teachers and STBXH frequently takes them there!! Both teachers have emailed both of us more than once within the last week. How hard is it?? This is so typical that these kinds of details are apparently below STBXH's notice, even though he wants to have full input on all decision-making on how to deal with problems like this.

Last night I feel asleep fully clothed in S7's bed at 8 PM. Third time in the last week. Something feels out of whack in my body. This morning my stomach feels upset (unusual for me). I'm feeling really anxious.

Seeing Guitarist tonight and looking forward to that, but wishing I could be more relaxed. Haven't seen him in 6 days...feels like a long time.

Missing getting input on my thread. I guess many have defected. Thanks Newmama and Lotus for chiming in, I really appreciate it. Smart Sister is out of the country for a month and I miss our daily phone calls.