Thanks GW for checking in on me... Rough last night. Very rough. The evenings are the worst and I can't seem to concentrate on TV, movies, etc. Even when my favorite things are on. Didy walk today, could not yesterday because my eyes were so sensitive from eye appointment. Heavily medicating myself at night to sleep, bad I know.

Tomorrow: Lasik. A bit frightened because it's not straightforward with some oft eye conditions... I was surprised how bad my left eye hurt from the epithial sponging.
But, I've needed to do this for some time now and last year just let the medical spending account funds go to waste much to my H's chagrin.

GW, I've been playing over and over in my mind what you said to me:
"He doesn't love you, he doesn't even know you."
check and mate. Having to drill that reality into my head over and over and over again to block out the fantasies and "love words" my brain wants to go back to (my lumbic brain).

Thanks guys... Trying to reach out to you right now instead if to OM, so forgive me for being so needy. 3 Full days is what I need of thought stopping, no cyberstalking his FB page, etc. It's tough, very tough even though he has backed off completely it generates a desire in me to chase after him.
Not uncommon in love addictions. At least I'm not driving across the country in a diaper like the wacked out astronaut lady. Geesh, I could see the headlines now, Ewwwwww... Talk about an effective thought-stopper!

Come on guys! You can come up with more equally unflattering images for me to plug in whenever the love fantasies start...

And GW, I'll take all the truth filled slaps you can send my way.
I NEED them!!!! This is critical time... Especially when I come home from the eye surgery tomorrow unable to read, watch TV, etc.