Hit by truck 2 months ago

[habitacker]

Thank you for your support. It is amazing how easy it has been to change myself. I was tired of being angry all the time. No wonder she does not love me anymore.
What scares me though is this change and making myself better is what she wanted me to do from the day she said it was over. I feel like i am just getting time to fix myself and get my life back together so i will be ok when it all ends and so I am a better person on my weekends with the kids. It feels like if I complete a 180 then she knows I will be alright on my own. I understand this is good for me and what i need, but not what I wish to happen in the end.
I really do not get angry anymore. I think it is because of so much shame. The only anger i might feel is that it is just over for her. I always thought if something was wrong we would try to work it out. It is so hard to except that she just wont try.