I know, I know. but damn it's hard. It's not like W and I were super affectionate all the time, but we got more affectionate this year because of my issues. Now she has pulled away.

I don't understand why she is not as upset as I am. What does she think when she looks at our kids?

I made a mistake today and broke down where she could see me. We drove into work together because our other car was in the shop. I dropped her off (secretly hoping for a hug or kiss) When she just left the car, I lost in and started crying. She came around to the other side of the car and said "I'll call you later, I cant do this now." I said "I know" But you could tell that she was really concerned.

The one thing I am looking forward to is my appt with my therapist. Tomorrow will be sheer heck though.

Patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet.
--Jean Jacques Rousseau.