Moving Forward

[gutwrenching]

Thanks. Yes she is at a work conference. This is the first time we've been apart since piecing. All of the talk of feelings for OM and feeling the need to deal with it by talking to him and moving on killed most of the trust I had built up.

But you are right. I HAVE TO DO BETTER TOMORROW. I have to let go of the fear that I know had to be obvious today. The only thing I feel good about what I did today was communicate to her that her actions triggered bad memories in me...she needs to understand that as we try to move forward.

Short term goal: hold it together till Thursday
Mid term goal: have a good holiday season this year unlike last year
Longer term goal: keep things moving to make it to Retrouville in January