Feeling a little introspective this evening....most of the day actually.
First, I realized by mid afternoon on Sunday that although I had a great time with golfguy Saturday night/Sunday morning, I really don't feel like I would care either way if I saw him again. That seems kind of messed up...
So I pieced it out. And here's the deal.
He's nice, polite, and touchy in a good way, like putting his hand on my leg at the comedy club, holding my hand when we were walking places, etc. I have been pretty much starved for affection for 3 years + so that is all good for me.
He is safe bc I have known him since I was in fifth grade, not some random guy off the internet.
He and I have mutual friends. So he brings to the table that social networking that I lack. Our three dates have been two parties with groups of friends, and then this double date w/my cousin and his wife. So much fun to laugh and talk with other people. It is just plain easier (for me anyway) to socialize as part of a couple. A few of my high school friends who live in town post pictures on facebook about once a month of parties they have had--they are all 'couple's' parties. Hanging out w/GG gives me entrance into those things.
But those aren't really reasons to date a guy, and it makes me feel pretty shallow just writing it out.
I don't regret going out with him, or making out like crazy with him, or even snuggling up on the couch together. It felt good and after 3 years, I wanted to do it, so I did.
But I really don't see it developing. I could, because of all the things I wrote above, but in the end none of those things are specific, to him....
Meanwhile other guy on Match who has been emailing me asked me to talk on the phone last night. I was tied up with Sydney bouncing out of bed and I replied back that I would like to talk, but it was not a good night as I was herding my D to bed. He actually replied that he was glad to know my kids are priority one, as his kids are to him. So he seems to have it together which is nice. And he is more physically my 'type' than GG. So I think I will call him tonight.
But beyond him not sure how much more venturing I want to do for now...need to make sure my priorities are in order and I know what I am looking for. I would say GG was/is probably more just to 'scratch an itch' so to speak, after all this single time...
