Sandi2 You are right, I am scared. I am scared that she has not ended her EA and just lied to me again. I am scared that she will hate me for forcing her to make a decision right now when she is not sure of what will happen to her if she has to leave. I am scared of not being able to care for my children by myself. She says our problems are not related to this other person. This is how I have been tried to show leadership and that I have changed. I am taking an active role in caring for the kids on the weekends and some week nights. I am fixing things around the house and getting things organized and cleaned up. I do not know how to make her start suffering due to her unfaithfulness. I am not telling her that I love her, I am not having any physical contact with her and I am trying really hard not to cry when she can see me. I know that I have to take the initiative, but other than going to MC on Dec 1, I do not know what else to do. Not talking about R will be easy because I dread it too now. Do I ask her if she ended EA yet? Should I act as if I care?
Me 39 W 37 S 5 D 2.75 Married 12 years Together 14 years Bomb Dropped 08/16/10
