I had a small emotional breakdown today during my swimming lesson. The person teaching me is a coworker that didn't know about H and me. She knew something in me had changed and that I was 'different'. After I told her she said the same thing everyone else that knows has said..."you are handling it really well, you wouldn't even know" that I was going through what I am going through. Which then she added, except that I am wasting away This was a bit of an over exaggeration and my weight has stabilized for the past few weeks.
I think I need to be proud of myself though for my 'acting as if'. I really make an effort to smile and say hi to more and more people. (H seems to be doing the opposite, people are noticing his scarcity around work... but, his problem, he can deal with it.) It makes me feel so much more confident and comfortable at work.
Needed to take notice of the baby steps... in ME.
(Formerly blgp) Me-35 H-33 Married 4 yrs Together 9 yrs "Bomb" 8/1/10 Separated 8/6/10 D filed 10/21/10, on hold til 1/11
"If you want to hear God laugh, tell Him about your life plans."
This was a bit of an over exaggeration and my weight has stabilized for the past few weeks.
