Haven't Yet Found My Way

[Mystik]

H called a little while ago. I gave the phone to DS and pretty much ran out of the room. A few minutes later DS came to the kitchen where I was. I asked if he was still going with Daddy tomorrow and he said yes, to see the new baby. I said, "Oh, so it's here" and he said no, not here but at the hospital and might still be there tomorrow, too.

Had a few minutes cry but nothing now, just some residual hurt. And still feeling so detached from my emotions.