Had a dream about H last night. In my dream when I first discovered his affair I told him that I was sorry for not being the wife he wanted, if he would just tell me what he was looking for I would do my best to be it. So he stopped his affair, and we stayed together and were happier than ever.
How I wish I could go back in time and do things differently. There are so many things I did that I would change to prevent this mess from happening. Even after he left there are things I wish I had done differently.
I wonder if part of why I’m so unemotional is I feel this whole situation is of no importance, that H is going to come back to me anyway and It won’t be a bother in our life together, so why stress about it. I feel so detached from my emotions, like they don’t exist anymore.
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