My thoughts are crazy and all over the f***ing map!!! The more threads I read, the more I realize how natural and normal this is... I need to stop beating myself up for this!!!
NOW I feel like, WTF? He is really f**ed up, I can do this and wait it out a bit. He is not contesting the delay in D for one reason or another... does it matter what that is? As MWD says, there is always a part of them that doesn't want to be D'd. I will do my very best not to get my hopes up above 5% chance (that is my personal limit ) and try to remember that piece of advice. What is a couple of months in the grand scheme of things. I need to continue to get healthy and concentrate on my work. It is way better to be single doing what I am doing than in a R. If I can just focus on work, I will be so much better off and can finish my program successfully.
Sorry I am so redundant. Just needed to journal again. Going to do my best to have an awesome time tonight and just enjoy being with friends.
(Formerly blgp) Me-35 H-33 Married 4 yrs Together 9 yrs "Bomb" 8/1/10 Separated 8/6/10 D filed 10/21/10, on hold til 1/11
"If you want to hear God laugh, tell Him about your life plans."
) and try to remember that piece of advice. What is a couple of months in the grand scheme of things. I need to continue to get healthy and concentrate on my work. It is way better to be single doing what I am doing than in a R. If I can just focus on work, I will be so much better off and can finish my program successfully.
