Thanks for responding GW. I have felt a little ambushed by my feelings the past 24 hours. I had been doing a pretty decent job of detaching and then attachment just sneaked up on me. I know I will be ok by my self. No family around here.
Friends have been somewhat hard to come by with my work schedule. Everyone I know works at the hospital and on the days I don't work... I find it really hard to cultivate friendships outside of that place. I guess as I write this, I realize that is just what I need to do. I am also afraid of getting attached to people that I will leave by next Oct. I have always become overly attached to my friends... another area to work on.
I think my feelings came from a couple of sources: I didn't run yesterday when I should have, nor today yet and I have been eating more carbs than usual... they make me cranky and emotional. I need to eat better. Plus, I was on day 5 of my work schedule and it had been very busy. I work with people in emotional crisis all the time. It gets very tiring.
I think I will just lie in bed and watch a movie today. Then go for a run. I plan to go to a BB game tonight with a friend so that should be fun. I don't really care about college BB but at least it is a chance to dress up, feel good about myself and get out of the apt.
(Formerly blgp) Me-35 H-33 Married 4 yrs Together 9 yrs "Bomb" 8/1/10 Separated 8/6/10 D filed 10/21/10, on hold til 1/11
"If you want to hear God laugh, tell Him about your life plans."
