I sent you an email earlier today. Hope you're feeling better.
I'm in a mood of resignation today. Resigned to the the fact that my marriage will be on its way to being over after the holidays. Unless I see a radical attitude shift on the part of my wife, I prefer to cash in my chips and move on, as lovingly as possible. I have told my wife that the things I want are deal-breakers....if she can't meet them (and they are basic needs of a spouse, nothing radical), there's no point in being together. I expect,...EXPECT...basic things from a wife, and I believe she's scared s**tless that she actually has to finally follow through, after all these years of blaming me for her problems. We have another session with a counselor on Friday, so we'll see how that goes.
With the resignation coems a nice sense of freedom and peace of mind. I still have two daughters that adore me, a good job, and the possibility of finding someone who can accept me for who I am, and share happiness with her that my daughters can observe. They deserve that, and I deserve that. I deserve better, and am tired of living in my wife's s**t.
