Starting again...

[gutwrenching]

I'm so sorry
I know this sucks
This period you are going through is natural, we all go through it and many times
You have put a lot of energy and effort into things lately and still see nothing from your H and you don't understand why/how...and I've got nothing to offer...to this day I don't understand how my W was willing to throw it all away and as you have seen, still might...still dealing with all this crap myself

Worn down is natural. The best way to get past worn down is not to let the situation consume you. I've got no secrets to offer there...it is one of my many weaknesses. But to get past worn down, you have to detach more and not let the situation drive your life

Lonely...you know what to do there...friends, family, activities

Anger...its natural, and I personally don't think its a bad thing...so let yourself feel that

Disbelief...I'm with you...

Hang in there, you are due for another really good day