Whatever it is that's pulling him away from you and his son, will eventually lose its power over him as long as he sees the girl he married. We women tend to change a lot after getting M and having children. Everyone does. It takes work and a constant reminder to be the one he fell in love with.
When you say you've been silly, I assume you are speaking about your sense of humor? That is an excellent tool! Who doesn't enjoy that atmosphere? Men hate drama! So whenever he comes over, or talks to you on the phone.....try to keep upbeat in your mental attitude. You will be challenged, but focus on your goal.
Have you set any personal goals? I suggest one of them be to get a good excersize workout b/c that does wonders for us when we are going through stressful times.
Living in a small town can have advantages. For example, your H will hear from others about seeing you out and how good you looked and how happy you seem to be.
Do you work outside of the home?
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
