I spent 5 hours with my dad last night with him fully aware of the environment. He wanted me to lay down beside him to lean on my shoulder and kept worrying about me being cold and telling me to cover up with a blanket. I looked at him and told him again he is the best dad I could wish for and his answer was "nahh I was the worst!!". He was smiling. I got my kids in the room and he kissed and they hugged him and he told me again that he wants me to make sure my kids will live well. I told him he has nothing to worry about...
He told me to be strong and to not to be afraid of life. He was my dad again.
He urged me to go home and rest and told me "he would be ok tonight". Being with him when he is calm and present was the best thing for me.I cant explain it. I felt at peace.
I am sorry this is all I am talking about but this is my life right now. H has been there for me. He has held me numerous times when I cry and also told me he loves my dad as well and he is sad. Our relationship is on hold right now. But we are connecting. What we, as family go through, brings us together although at first I felt I was distancing myself...
