She's in MLC, but I was weak. Now what?

[crushednstuck]

I attended an annual fundraiser this weekend and W elected not to come. I was hurt because she did go last year in the midst of her A. This year the empty chair and un-eaten salad next to me gave away my status.

I guess I was flattered at the attention I got. It was reassuring, though I still felt lonely going home by myself. I like the changes I'm making and this time alone has been useful. But I am beginning to second guess DBing. Isn't the definition of insanity 'repeatedly doing the same thing and expecting different results?'

When I earnestly make changes and W fails to notice - blinded by her A, her anger, why should I expect different results? I'm really not too angry - or if I was I cycled fairly quickly. I can take comfort in my positive changes, but being detached waiting for her to 'snap out of it' hasn't worked.

When a hot brunette asks what my relationship status is, I attempt to deflect with 'It's complicated but thank you for asking.' She presses further. After flirty (read 'awkward' banter) she ultimately says women won't move unless insecure. She needs to see me with someone else to realize that she is not in control anymore. Ironically, my IC echoed this today. W has no motivation to change. This could be terminal unless I change it.

Do I just 'know' I've had enough?