I will come through this as I have every other crappy thing that I have dealt with in my life. I just have been trying hard not to have to make this choice, but the decision was out of my hands. My H does not want what I want in our R, and I can no longer wait in vain for him to become a H to me. Life is too short and I have been far too patient. I have to move on to save my sanity.
You are more centered and less angry tonight. I know that the anger and depression are hard to fight but you did a good job today. Keep up telling your W that you love her. Do not push. She needs to come to you more than you go to her. I'm glad that you went to dinner as a family, that is so important for the girls right now.
She admits that the Firef**K was just a fantasy thing for her and he is a good looking idiot. Since she has realized that he is pretty mindless, the attraction was just a physical thing.
You have much more to offer her with your wit, intelligence and humor. Let it go, forgive and forget this painful episode. It may take some time for you to reach that point, but you can get there.
Still sounds like part of her not being able to truely forgive you. You have to forgive her to move on. If she see total forgiveness from you, then she may reach forgivess for you. Remember when you are back with your wife that you are making love to her, and only her. That is part of the forgiveness.
Corri also needs your prayers tonight as there was a death in the family.
