I keep getting sucked back in to how wrong this feels. I feel like a failure.
Feeling like a failure keeps me stuck. My memories keep me stuck. The physical memories - the reminders of everything in my house, everything I own that is tied to H and our M keep me stuck. I can't stop loving my H - the person I've loved for 30 years, despite all of THIS - and that keeps me stuck.
I can go on with my life. I can move forward on my own, but as a failure at all that I believed to be important in life. All that I knew. A failure to my H. A failure to my children, denying them the family they deserved.
I'm not the one that gave up on my M. But I'm the one that feels like the failure.
What keeps me stuck? Why is this so much easier for others? Why can't I just file for D like my H wants and be done? I wish I knew.
What have you failed at exactly ?
I'm not seeing the things you say as being a failure at all....
You are raising a family by yourself....And if that equates being a failure, then most of us here are failures as well....
B...All of these things you are feeling are normal...
Is it the fear of failure that concerns you ?
Or is it the fear of success without him ?
Success shouldn't be measured in terms of your status. Only defined by what is inside of yourself...
As for filing....
As long as you are protecting yourself financially, then what is different or would be different from that happening ?
