Went to Disneyland yesterday, and ended up just taking my daughter to my place to sleep, for her first time. I went to drop her off this morning at the house, and my wife gave me an indifferent look, and asked if we had a good time at the them park. I said that we did, and that I wished she had been with us. She looked at me with disgust, and said the did not believe me for a second.
She thinks that I want nothing to do with her. she was VERY cold to me at the house today. I requested that we talk later today, and she agreed to that. I told her that we are two people who love each other, but whose marriage is going through a painful metamorphosis. I also said that we used to be best friends, and can be that way again, if we can start respecting each other. She said that she believes what she believes, but I mentioned that whatever I say later today will be honest.
We need to STOP being so hurtful to each other. It's a game of one-upsmanship between us, and it has to stop. I'm trying to be loving, and will keep being loving today. That's the man she wanted all along, and that's the man I'm going to be this afternoon, and from here forward. I'm sure that she still wants her space, but we do need to keep a dialogue going. I'm putting my best foot forward. I just hope she doesn't step on it.
