Cajun: I'm definitely trying to show more interest in him and what's going on with him. He is trying to find a new job and is looking for an apartment, so I'm showing interest in all that--even though talking to him about an apt is heartbreaking (he is staying with a friend right now). I can't show any sexual interest b/c neither of us feel that is appropriate given the situation we are in--being separated and divorce filed. I would love to be with him physically and would ove to initiate that contact, but I don't need anymore rejection and feel it would go against the 180 I'm trying right now. Before we separated I was trying to initiate intimacy a lot. It got me nowhere, so I'm not trying that now--plus we don't see each other often. I know he felt rejected by both me and our daughter after we had her and that led to the affair. So, I'm just trying to be kind and forgiving to him and be the friend and parenting partner he needs right now. I only hope and pray these efforts help us reconcile and I hope he notices the change.
M-32, WAH 32 D-7 months Bomb of PA 9/25 WAH left 10/24 D Filed by WAH
