Thanks for the prayers everyone. I know that worrying does nothing but cause more stress. I have always known that. I just had alot of things hit me all at once in one day. Friday night after going out with a friend, I came home and had the best cry I had had in quite a while. Woke up feeling alot better on Saturday.

I did have some guy that Im not really that interested in ask me to go out with him when I was ready to date...I was kinda shocked, but had a good laugh about it...he just wanted me to know he was interested and he knew I was in no way ready to date yet....Ugh, Im far from ready to date, far far far from ready...lol


still way too many emotions im dealing with over my H. I still love the dummy and always will. Just wish he would get his act together....

anyway...its a new week...got lots of little things to focus on...you are all right, its too much to handle when looking at the big picture....I know God will take care of me anyway and things always work out in the end just the way they are supposed to.

All weekend my H has been way too attentive to me. Its hard to not let him do things to be nice. I guess I can tolerate the niceness...but I know what he wants....he told me, he wants some loving...lol, told him I wanted that a LONG TIME AGO! I wish he would see that he has a problem. I would love to know why he can be this loving and attentive to me now, but not when were together...I feel like he will never leave me alone...and I know...I am in control of MY life, not him....I keep repeating that to myself. Plus its helping that my sister is kinda in the same sitch with her H. Only difference is her H is emotional abusive and violent...It good for me to help her, because it helps me...I gotta start taking my own advice smile

Kissak

"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3
M-37 H-37
S-10, D-15
M- 1993
First bomb- 12/23/06
Came and went too MANY times!
Gone again 10-25-10