Well, stbxh's crazy schedule strikes again . It turns out he's working from 4 pm to overnight on Dec 24 and 25...so Santa's comin' to my place. He asks me how I want to do the scheduling on those two days. IT'S NOT ABOUT WHAT *I* WANT. IT'S ABOUT THE KIDS DUMMY! Sorry for shouting, but I'm feeling pretty emotional today.
I had to have a good cry with a friend this morning. Mothering has been really hard lately and I'm feeling so alone with no one to intimately share the highs and lows of raising our children. I am dealing with a lot of whining, frustration, challenging behaviours from my children. It's inevitable that they are taking so much of the brunt of this situation. I've always believed that children need two parents...and shared custody just isn't the same. My friend was really awesome, just listening and letting me know that it's really hard and that I'm doing the best I can for my kids...and sometimes that's not enough. She doesn't sugarcoat things and I love her for that.
In positive news I did my first soukouss dance class today. I'm pretty uncoordinated so it was very challenging. But I love how sexy and full of attitude it is. The teacher is great and exudes positive energy.
me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4 current thread: http://tinyurl.com/3y8sxcp .: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.
. It turns out he's working from 4 pm to overnight on Dec 24 and 25...so Santa's comin' to my place. He asks me how I want to do the scheduling on those two days. IT'S NOT ABOUT WHAT *I* WANT. IT'S ABOUT THE KIDS DUMMY! Sorry for shouting, but I'm feeling pretty emotional today. 