Haven't Yet Found My Way

[Mystik]

I am for the most part able to keep the tears hidden from H. If I had someone who could do the exchanges for me I'd have started to use them a long time ago, believe me. I have thought about it. Unfortunately, there isn't anyone. I don't want to chit chat with H, he will just start talking and I don't respond. And the only reason he is able to talk at me is because DS will climb in my car door to hug me when I get there. Going to talk to DS and explain because it's getting cold out I need him to just get right in his booster seat, it makes me cold to have my door or window open.

If H is not able to take DS on Wednesday as scheduled I am not going to give him another night, even though I have nothing going on during any other night this week. I say that now, but we'll see what happens.