Haven't Yet Found My Way

[Mystik]

Thanks everyone for your kind words. I am just so worried about being a burden and feeling the need to stand on my own two feet, not that I'm doing so great at that, but still. Logically I know H did this to me, and I know I should be angry with him but I just can't do it. I feel that because I let H do this to me, I'm not strong. And while I do feel ok it's a false sense of security. Am I ok because of the medications I'm on? Am I ok because I let my sister make a big decision for me? Why am I ok now when I wasn't last Tuesday? So many unanswered questions about the situation that keep nagging at me.