How do I deal with now he's overseas?

[Piano]

Eric, thanks for taking the time!

Seriously though, IMO, the fact that you continue to focus on what YOU perceive as YOUR shortcomings is something that I think you need to look at. Why do you continue to do this?

I think this is a good question.

I do feel guilty.

I have a self esteem problem,

And probably a codependency one.

As for you H, the day will come when he may wake up and realize the consequences of his actions. So, when he does, what will he find? Who will Piano be when you does come around?

She will be strong. Unphased. A great mother. In control of her temper. She will not be a good listener, and not have to prove a point. She will feel the fear and do it anyway.

Some of the things I am aiming for.

Keep focused forward. Plan what you need to plan. Let him go. Cut off all contact. IF he wants to see his little girl, well then he can make the arrangements to come visit her.

You and your daughter are worth more than an email!

I am surprised you agree with cutting him off. I am so scared my daughter will blame me one day for not sending news to him about her when he asked. Don't I have to be careful I am not being vindictive? When does compassion enter into it?